Beginnings & Endings

in #introduceyourself3 years ago (edited)

Life is funny. And it’s not. We often come into things as serendipitously as we go out. And sometimes...we do it unconsciously.

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I’ve been taking a break from Steemit. I’m not sure exactly why I walked away. Well that’s not exactly true. After a year of pouring my heart into this place, I felt empty and discouraged and somewhat disillusioned. Doing the math, I discovered that I could probably have made more working in a sweatshop in a third world country. And as I was waking up to that indisputable, humbling fact, Steem dove off a cliff.

I needed a break.

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But then something happened. I discovered that I missed my daily ritual of creating a post. Of writing and shooting and editing and curating...just for myself. Just for the sake of doing it. Not to order. Not for hire.

So...I’m back. I’m still broke. I’m still struggling. I’m still searching for my place in this world as an unapologetic artist. But I’m also here. Consider this my reintroduction; my Steemit 2.0.

Did y’all miss me as much as I missed you?

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How charming. A bot made as much auto-commenting on my post as I did.

This couldn't possibly be intentional on IMB's part, could it? He meant to write more books, no?

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Yes, I did. You are now doing it for the right reasons and I look forward to more

Well...after seeing several 100% downvotes on this post - for who knows why! - I remembered why I stopped. No offense at all, @nikv, but it’s a hell of a lot easker to do it for the right reasons when you’re reaching people and making respectable payouts.

When I can pay my bills and have some stability, perhaps I’ll come back for the “right reasons”. But for now, clearly this isn’t a luxury I can afford to put my heart and soul into. 😞

Don't take the downvotes personally, they are worth nothing and part of the Steemit Defense league. A bunch of trolls that downvote at random for no reason at all. Everyone has received a few.

My idea of the right reasons revolves around just being productive. I plugged away at writing on the internet for years for free. It actually turned into paying work in the real world. What matters is that you put it out there, not what you are getting right now.

What matters is that I need to pay my bills... I wish it didn’t. I wish the world was different. I wish a lot of things. 😕

Me too. But all that aside, why not join the @monchromes discord server and start posting under #monomad? It's no longer daily topics

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