My fear of joining SF in 10 days!
10 days! youuuu 10 days!!!
Can you believe it's less than 2 weeks away. Actually, to be exact, 10 days!!!!. Honestly, I'm nervous about many things.
You see me talking to the camera like I have no shyness but weirdly, I'm good at talking to a camera (the camera) more than talking to people I have never met before.
Here's even weirder. I'm better at talking with people I have never met before and never really known them before.. than with people I have never met before but I kinda know them somehow.. Does that sound confusing?
I'm scared of people judging. I'm scared of people expectation.
I'm not as talkative as I am on all my vlogs unless I'm SO comfortable with you. I'm also not good at starting a conversation or come up with topics to talk about
I like the vibes when the alcohol going through my blood, at least, at the beginning. It makes me more socialised.. I talk more and I guess, I'm a bit more relax and laugh a lot. I could feel the fun, more fun.
Though, I'm allergic to alcohol. Once it gets into my body, I get way too high and energise and all, then a bit after, the energy goes below zero and I just want to go to bed. Literally.
I don't want to be that boring one sitting right there and waiting for bed time / or go home early before the party not even started yet..
I live in Thailand, correct. I was actually born here, in Bangkok too. Though, I know so little about the city and the country. A lot of the things @roelandp has been talking about in all the posts and newsletter, I have no clues. I have never ever been to Koh Chang, where the afterparty will be at..
People would expect me to be such a guide and maybe know all the good spots to eat, where to hang out and the best places to go get f* up and all that..
No, I don't think I could be a good local guide Ooops :/
True! All these are so true and yes, I'm afraid of all I have just mentioned.
Say hi to me anyways if I'm too shy to go talk to you. Or even just come to me and ask if I have actually posed naked / wore a 2 inches push-up bra like I talked about in my 3 truths 1 lie post! I'm willing to tell you the truth :)
I will see you in 10 days! <3
Big hug from Bangkok!